Dissolving the Ego Course - July 2021
This is a deeply practical and comprehensive 4 week study of how to fully Enlighten and dissolve all the blocks to peace.
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Study Sheet for Lesson 1
Audio and Video files for Lesson 1
Lesson 1 - 18th July Part 2
Transcript for Lesson 1 - Part 2
00:00 Q1. I can’t get rid of a breathing technique
01:21 Helens answer
02:39 Q1a. I don’t feel peace and love during meditation
03:11 Helens answer
06:23 Q2. I feel I need to effort more
07:39 Helens answer
13:07 Q3. Should I meditate / I wake up and can’t go back to sleep / I hear ringing in my ears
13:38 Helens answer
26:04 Q4. I realize I’ve been thinking instead of noticing
27:00 Helens answer
30:27 Q5. I don’t have the sense of being silence
31:51 Helens answer
Audio and Video files for Q and A Session 1
Q and A Session 1 22nd July
Transcript for Q and A Session 1
01:18 Q1. I notice physical sensations and mental self-abuse that can be challenging. Of these physical sensations, one in particular stands out: it is a burning sensation around the heart area.
02:20 Helen’s response.
07:16 Q2. When I meditate I fall into a state that is deeper than the usual ‘here-ness’. Where or what is this? What is this space that is behind thoughts and sound but is not actually sleep?
08:23 Helen’s response.
15:03 Q3. Do healing techniques reduce fear in order to calm the mind enough to experience the Noumenon and/or do they perpetuate engagement in cause and effect, sickness, stroke, health?
15:37 Helen’s response.
19:12 Q4. How is memory formed? Is memory imagined; is our whole life imagined?
20:24 Helen’s response.
32:14 Q5. Overwhelmed by images and feelings
33:55 Helen's answer
50:52 Q6. Who is in the driver’s seat - interface of tangible and intangible
51:45 Helen's answer
57:32 Q7. Impossible to remain attentive to the Silence due to powerful shouting thoughts
58:06 Helen's answer
1:01:17 Q8. Where am I - the body as a phenomenon?
1:03:16 Helen's answer
Study Sheet for Lesson 2
Audio and Video files for Lesson 2
Lesson 2 - 25th July Part 1
00:00 Lesson 2
36:02 Q1. Finding the question for ‘feeling less than’ with family
37:01 Helens answer
42:03 Q2. Finding the emotion for not being happy in marriage
42:40 Helens answer
47:52 Q3. Finding the question for wanting something for another person
51:36 Helens answer
Lesson 2 - 25th July Part 2
Transcript for Lesson 1 - Part 2
00:00 Q4. Progress report on dealing with fear
00:51 Helens answer
07:10 Q2. Finding the question for feeling responsible for another’s happiness
09:17 Helens answer
14:44 Q3. Hesitancy about when you feel you should speak up about something
19:30 Helens answer
Audio and Video files for Q and A Session 2
Q and A Session 2 29th July Part 1
Transcript for Q and A Session 2
- Part 1 and 2
00:42 Q1. How do we know that Noumenon is not really just more phenomenon?
01:15 Helen’s response.
08:46 Q2. I have just broken up in my relationship, and it is painful and intense.
09:35 Helen’s response.
16:31 Q3. My son has Asperger’s disease and is dependent on me. It seems impossible to see that he is not separate from me, and to love him unconditionally.
18:50 Helen’s response.
28:01 Q4. Is the idea of repeating the asking “Is it true?” a way to move away from egoic mind to the Noumenon?
28:45 Helen’s response.
35:25 Q5. I have a belief about trauma that seems insurmountable. I cannot contemplate/enquire my way out.
37:08 Helen’s response.
43:37 Q6. My question for contemplation is: “I’m not good enough; is that true?” The answer is “I don’t know.”
45:30 Helen’s response.
54:11 Q7. When I rest attention on the Noumenon, I explore to find an edge. This feels as though I’m treating the Noumenon as phenomena.
54:38, Helen’s response.
57:10 Q8. Does identification with my body dissolve gradually by challenging the belief “Is it true . . .” and returning to the Silence alone, or is there a deeper core belief that needs exposing?
57:44 Helen’s response.
01:01:01 Q9. If my separate self is created by the egoic mind, and I am not my thoughts, feelings, and body, why is there a body left to bury or burn when it dies?
01:00:39 Helen’s response.
1:05:01 Q10. Find myself frustrated that I’m not there yet, voice inside telling me nothing has actually changed.
01:06:26, Helen’s response.
Q and A Session 2 29th July Part 2
0:00:06 Q1 Being with the fullness of emotions
0:01:21 Helen’s answer
0:08:57 Q2 What is the difference between meditation and contemplation?
0:10:12 Helen’s answer
0:11:45 Q3a Does the mind eventually surrender?
0:12:16 Helen’s answer
0:15:30 Q3b Anger and menopausal hormones
0:17:12 Helen’s answer
Study Sheet for Lesson 3
Audio and Video files for Lesson 3
Lesson 3 - 1st August Part 1
00:00 Lesson 3
36:24 Q1. What’s the difference between mind and consciousness?
36:38 Helens answer
43:40 Q2. Is there any value in affirming that I am beingness?
45:35 Helens answer
48:16 Q3. In meditation, I’m missing out on the promised peace and joy. It seems boring or irrelevant.
49:23 Helens answer
Lesson 3 - 1st August Part 2
Transcript for Lesson 1 - Part 1 and 2
00:00 Q1. I’m having a challenge with ‘ where am I looking from’
01:41 Helens answer
08:55 Q2. When I tune into awareness I feel I use the mind.
10:21 Helens answer
16:00 Q3. I can observe everything that occurs but I’m still confused.
17:12 Helens answer
27:01 Q4. Is it ok to use noticer or observer instead of being?
27:35 Helens answer
Audio and Video files for Q and A Session 2
Q and A Session 3 5th August Part 1
Transcript for Q and A Session 3
- Part 1 and 2
00:57 Q1. How does the Noumenon decide when to withdraw the life force from a body?
01:28 Helen’s response.
04:33 Q2. How might I best form a question for contemplation on my karmic patterns regarding powerlessness?
05:58 Helen’s response.
11:24 Q3. I feel a sense of desperation to stop living as a separate person. At the same time, I am fed up with doing this spiritual work.
12:28 Helen’s response.
18:57 Q4. An old boyfriend who is now married has resurfaced in my life a - I’m concerned about morality.
20:37 Helen’s response.
26:03 Q5. I had a profound positive experience of the Noumenon recently while using psilocybin - can I use the memory of that experience to take myself deeper into meditation?
27:15 Helen’s response.
31:18 Q6. I had a clear and strong knowing that I am the Noumenon.
34:30 Helen’s response.
40:40 Q7. It can sometimes seem like hard work to use the contemplation questions or look for a separate entity when resting in and as Beingness. Is it equally beneficial to just sit quietly doing nothing?
41:00 Helen’s response.
43:05 Q8. While tuning in to the Silence or the Contextual Field, I experience a humming sound. Is this humming a way that the Noumenon is showing up for me?
44:10 Helen’s response.
49:33 Q9. I struggle with forming questions for contemplation. How important is it to ask a question in the way you describe (i.e., “Is it true that I need more x or y?”)?
50:30 Helen’s response.
54:48 Q10. I’m struggling to get past the sense that there is an “I” in the middle of my head, behind my eyes.
55:28, Helen’s response.
Q and A Session 3 5th August Part 2
0:00:57 Q1 Why am I still reacting to being judged by others?
0:02:50 Helen’s answer
0:11:07 Q2 Contemplating the story or the emotion behind the story?
0:11:43 Helen’s answer
0:16:20 Q3 Falling asleep during meditation?
0:18:13 Helen’s answer
0:19:57 Q4 Putting the work in but still believing thoughts of unworthiness?
0:20:48 Helen’s answer
Study Sheet for Lesson 4
Audio and Video files for Lesson 4
Lesson 4 - 8th August Part 1
Transcript for Lesson 4
- Part 1 and Part 2
00:00 Lesson 4
36:50 Q1. Can I prefer something to be different?
37:50 Helens answer
39:17 Q1a. Are we being lived by the Self?
39:27 Helens answer
41:35 Q2. I’m feeling and seeing things differently
43:16 Helens answer
48:11 Q3. After a beautiful experience with my sister, I’m wondering if she is a hidden aspect of myself.
50:11 Helens answer
52:08 Q4. It’s easier for me to see essence in people than in animals or objects
53:42 Helens answer
58:52 Q5. Am I being lazy or resistant?
59:44 Helens answer
Lesson 4 - 8th August Part 2
00:00 Q1. What if something bad happens and hurts the physical body?
01:36 Helens answer
06:20 Can I use a statement instead of a question?
08:28 Helens answer
16:55 Helen - GP explanation and practicing the DTE course
Q and A Session 4 13th August Part 1
Transcript for Q and A Session 4
- Part 1 and 2
01:35 Q1 In regards to triggers, my spouse and I face difficulties with our adult daughter — It’s so hard not to worry about her.
02:12 Helen’s response.
06:44 Q2 I have suffered a number of relationship endings and lost a part-time job, I feel despondent, without purpose, and stuck in a holding pattern with nothing happening.
08:33 Helen’s response.
15:59 Q3 I often remember my bad past. There is a strong desire that people who have hurtme should be punished like I have been hurt for my bad deeds. I can’t feel love for others or myself because of it.
16:55 Helen’s response.
24:26 Q4 When I am making a life decision, have I analyzed the situation enough to make the best decision. How can we be comfortable that the decisions we make are the best that they can be?
25:15 Helen’s response.
30:34 Q5 Could a single contemplation process extend over days or even longer. could we just keep returning to until it is resolved in stillness? Is it best to not enter into additional questions until the first one is answered?
31:30, Helen’s response.
35:28, Q6 I’m struggling with a causality loop regarding personal safety. My concern is with a verbally abuse, physically threatening neighbor.
36:52 Helen’s response.
41:37 Q7 At a Vipasana meditation retreat attended in my 20s I started having strong vibrational pulsations and orgasmic rushes up my spine. It was wonderful to share these energies with my lover, but now I am older and single, and I don’t want these energies if they are going to detract from the practices you offer.
43:17, Helen’s response.
50:43 Q8 I recognize a darkness, hopelessness and despair that accompanies flare-ups of a long-term chronic health condition. Something in me wants to give up, there is too much suffering reflected as these life conditions
51:48, Helen’s response.
57:17, Q9 Doctors found lumps on my thyroid but couldn’t immediately diagnose cancer. Concurrently, I feel frustration with this DTE course, like we are chasing an unobtainable carrot.
58:38 Helen’s response.
1:05:09 Q10 My husband and I are defending against a lawsuit that has been dragged out over 5 years with no end in sight. It has caused a lot of fear and anger for us.
1:05:59 Helen’s response.
Q and A Session 4 13th August Part 2
00:00 Q1 Is it pointless desiring a relationship?
01:33 Helen’s answer
08:39 Q2a How has the universe been formed if there is no creation and it’s all emptiness?
10:02 Helen’s answer
16:29 Q2b Chanting Om - clarify why the world is a dream with eyes closed in meditation but appears real with eyes open?
17:32 Helen’s answer
22:53 Q3 Realising Consciousness as Innocence is triggering fear.
24:49 Helen’s answer
36:20 Q4 Why are feelings of unworthiness that I thought were healed now being triggered?
38:32 Helen’s answer
47:32 Q5 Blocked by fear of losing my identity.
50:53 Helen’s answer