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Dissolving the Ego Course - January 2023
This is a deeply practical and comprehensive 4 week study of how to fully Enlighten and dissolve all the blocks to peace.
The Lesson Plans and Audio files will be added to this page as the course progresses.
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Reference Material
Dissolving the Ego - Ebook
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Transcending limiting beliefs using contemplation
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Emotions and hidden beliefs
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Core Teachings - YouTube
Reality Check Satsangs - In these Satsang's Helen reads from her book Reality Check
For Part 1 - Click Here : For Part 2 - Click Here
There are Dissolving the Ego Meetups held throughout the week. Please click here to see further details.
Lesson 1 Study Sheet - Learning to recognise the Self.
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Lesson 1 - 08/01/23 - Part 1
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Recording Index
00.40 Helen speaks - Welcome, announcements and information 09.05 Helen explains the the aim of the course 12.27 Helen teaches lesson one |
Lesson 1 - 08/01/23 - Part 2
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01.24 Q1. When I focus on the silence I am still desiring and seeking. How can I focus on the silence without desire, when will I feel fulfilment and peace? 02.06 Helen answers 08.51 Q2. How can I turn off “my own music - white noise” while meditating 10.03 Helen answers 13.42 Q3. I like to do the space meditation but I feel I space out, and I’m not sure this is quite right. 14.14 Helen answers 17.43 Q3. If we get emotions that arise during this week shall we use these doorways as an experiment or do we keep these just for meditation. 18.05 Helen answers 21.00 Q4 - I would like to share that I’ve noticed that when these feelings start coming up I seem to be better able to ask if I really need to pay attention to this, and I am finding it easier to let these feelings go. 22.31 Helen answers 25.09 Q5 - Helen, you say you are always aware. How can i experience that i am always aware 25.54 Helen answers 31.27 Q6 - You were talking about awareness and I heard you say something I think it was ”nobody can keep your mind on the Noumenon all the time” Did i get this right and am i on the right track ? 35.51 Helen answers 38.35 Q7 - I had a very traumatic event happen yet I stayed mostly present through it and now I feel better than before this very difficult week. Can you explain this to me, Helen ? 41.05 Helen answers 42.06 Q8 - You bought in this word curiosity and I heard it in a very different way and I realise I have absolutely no idea what awareness is, and this feels very open. 43.08 Helen answers 46.37 Helen speaks |
Q & A Session 1 - 12.01.23 - Part 1
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0:00 Helen speaks 1:05 Q1. If you are paying attention to the background (awareness will you lose perception of the phenomenon happening in awareness? Is it either awareness or phenomenon? 2:00 Helen answers 11:17 Q2. How much practice do we really need to do? What bothers me is that I am really lazy. 12:12 Helen answers 20:10 Q3. I see clients as a psychotherapist. How can I be in a profession to help the psyche when I don’t even believe it exists? 21:26 Helen answers 30:48 Q4. What is the need of therapy and healing of the wounded child? Is it really necessary in the path of Self-Realization? 31:15 Helen answers 36:46 Q5. So much intense emotion is coming up right now. How do I know what is the perimenopause and what is caused by the awakening process? 37:17 Helen answers |
Q & A Session 1 - 12.01.23 - Part 2
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0:00 Q6a. Can you clarify cause and effect? 2:58 Helen answers 13:34 Q6b. What is curiosity? 13:45 Helen answers 19:00 Q7. My mind wants to try all the doorways, any advice? 20:05 Helen answers 27:08 Q8a. Awareness is always here. I was confusing awareness and attention. 28:50 Helen answers 30:10BQ8b. It seems like you are actually talking to the awareness. What is that thing? 30:42 Helen answers 33:04 Q9. I am here, right? Am I just making this all up? How do I know I am in the same place as who I might be talking to? 34:24 Helen answers |
Lesson 2 Study Sheet - Deepening Your Recognition.
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Lesson 2 - 15/01/23 - Part 1
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Recording Index
0.02 Helen introduces Lesson 2 3.05 Helen teaches Lesson 2 39.43 Q1. I feel a need to stock up on degrees, skills and other intellectual abilities because I have a desperate feeling of insufficiency. 41.20 Helen answers |
Lesson 2 - 15/01/23 - Part 2
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0.09 Q2. I feel that I’m not being loved for who I am. I feel lonely, separate and I don’t belong. 0.34 Helen answers 15.42 Q3. The cause & effect loop that comes up daily is an intense irritation with the person I live with. 16.22 Helen answers 25.00 Q4. For me it’s fear. I can meditate and be the Noumenon, but when I come out and deal with the world I go back behind my facade. 26.03 Helen answers 33.18 Q5. Two things come up: not feeling safe and I’ve always worn a cloak of shame. This led to the question: Is it true I can die? 33.46 Helen answers 46.22 Q6. I don’t have a full seeing of not being separate when I see hunger in the community/ climate change. 48.27 Helen answers 1.00.28 Q7. A belief that runs my life is I’m a failed artist. If I could make art, everything would be alright. 1.01.20 Helen answers |
Q & A Session 2 - 19.01.23 - Part 1
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0:30 Q1: My husband says non-duality is a cult. I want to spend time exploring my true nature, any advice? 1:20 Helen answers 7:40 Q2: What would it mean not to suffer? 10:13 Helen answers 16:48 Q3: I feel massive resistance to week 2 lesson and disillusionment at this point. Please help. 17:20 Helen answers 26:59 Q4: Do you feel that journaling can be helpful in this process? 27:18 Helen answers 29:48 Q5: I can feel now that the formlessness and my body are the same. Thanks, with love. 30:06 Helen answers 35:08 Q6: I am curious as to why I believe I am separate. 35:12 Helen answers 40:19 Q7: When pain arises in the body I feel frightened, when I ask ‘is it true that I am out of control of the body the answer is yes.’ 40:52 Helen answers 45:23 Q8a: What about mistakes? 47:17 Helen answers 48:30 Q8b: What about when others make mistakes? 48:50 Helen answers 52:58 Question 9: Regarding the emptiness of all things, when I go deeper into the experience there is no ground because there is emptiness everywhere. 54:17 Helen answers |
Q & A Session 2 - 19.01.23 - Part 2
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0:00 Q10: My question is about the inner child and spiritual bypassing. 1:30 Helen answers 7:00 Q11: My question is about formulating a question. Multiple health challenges with despair; is it really true that life is suffering? 9:28 Helen answers 29:18 Q12: A quick clarification about contemplation 29:38 Helen answers 31: 40 Q13: The question just keeps going and going and coming around spontaneously. 32:31 Helen answers |
Lesson 3 Study Sheet – Switching Identity to the Self.
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Lesson 3 - 22/01/23 - Part 1
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00.30. Helen introduces lesson 3, shifting identity to the Self / the Noumenon 09.13. Helen explains the exercises for lesson 3 and asks volunteers variations on these two questions 15.44. Volunteer 1 - Searching for a separate being. Helen asks the volunteer to try to find who this body and thoughts belong to. Helen asks how are they recognising this presence they have found themselves to be 29.00. Volunteer 2 - Helen asks: Can you find a someone to whom all this is happening. Are you using your senses or your mind to recognise this Presence? Are you looking at or from Presence. 35.32. Volunteer 3 - Who is listening to the Silence. Will it make a difference to you when body and mind goes 43.44. Volunteer 4 - Are you a person, a someone, an object? What do you find when you look for yourself, the one that is using this body? (person finds fear) What can you tell me about the one who finds fear? Can I be in or out of the body? |
Lesson 3 - 22/01/23 - Part 2
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00.05 Volunteer 5 - Helen asks: Is there a you and it? Can you find someone in that everywhere formlessness? What happens when you ask this question: how am I recognizing this presence? How do I know this presence is here? 11.25. Volunteer 6 - Helen asks: Can you find a separate being? Where is it? 25.09. Volunteer 7 - Helen asks: What do you find when you try to find yourself? How big is this space you find? Are you using your senses or your imagination to perceive it? How am i recognising this space like me? 32.56. Volunteer 8 - Helen asks: Are you able to recognise a separate being when you look. Can you find someone being aware? How do you know awareness is here? Where are you perceiving awareness from? 45.30. Volunteer 9 - Helen asks when you look for yourself do you find a person? Can you be certain you are in your mind/body? Can you find where you are? 57.15. Volunteer 10 - Helen asks can you find a someone? Is This that you really are, affected by a noisy mind or tense distracted body? Can my mind affect me? 01.04.43 Helen talks more about the power of these exercises |
Q & A Session 3 - 26.01.23 - Part 1
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00.06 Helen talks 02.16. Q1 - Will awareness/feelings exist without this body? When I look, it seems that feelings are awareness. Am I confusing feelings and awareness? 02.48. Helen answers. 10.34. Q2 - Whenever I ask you a question afterwards I'm in an expanded state of consciousness and feel great peace, but this fades after a few days. 10.56. Helen answers. 21.40. Q3 - As you say Helen, with an identity shift to the Self all karmic patterns will dissolve, i.e. the outside will change when the inside changes because they are one. Does this include the physical health of the body? 22.31. Helen answers. 30.39. Q4 - I experience a repeated pattern of unsuccessful relationships. Please can you help me with the dissolving of this karmic pattern so I may have the type of relationship I desire. 32.08. Helen answers. 40.40. Q5 - Doing self enquiry with you really helped, yet I feel resistance to doing it on my own. 41.03. Helen answers. 50.08. Q5 - How can I get more energy to flow through this body? What question would help with this? 50.40. Helen answers. |
Q & A Session 3 - 26.01.23 - Part 2
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00.08 Q6 - My husband whom I love dearly is really struggling with memory loss, he is frustrated and angry. I want to support him but I am at a loss as to how to be with this. 02.10. Helen answers 13.27 - Q7 - When feeling emotions I go between being open where the energy flows and I feel peace and other times where I contract and feel closed. The same with open curiosity. Can you help me see why this happens? Also I am confused about the difference between "experiencing and knowing". 14.46. Helen answers. 21.46. Q7 - When I'm with others and really present and in the moment with them there is a fear that (in this Oneness) I'm overstepping the mark energetically/psychically. 23.04. Helen answers 27.43. Q8 - I am finding thinking about "where is the Self" and self inquiry really hard. 29.31. Helen answers. 40.21. Q9 - I often feel myself as awareness beyond the body, spacious and expansive, especially when I'm driving. With this comes fear. Can you speak about this, and help me find equilibrium. 42.11. Helen answers 45.40 Helen summarises |
Lesson 4 Study Sheet – Dissolving Duality and Becoming the One
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Lesson 4 - 29/01/23 - Part 1
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00:03 Helen introduces lesson four 38:36 Volunteer 1 - I love food but I have developed a lot of food intolerances. 40:58 Helen guides the volunteer to ask the question: what really is food? 49:09 Volunteer 2 - I am having to sell my house and I am feeling a lot of anxiety about accepting the offer that's right for me, and about my future. 52:48 Helen guides the question: what really is money? |
Lesson 4 - 29/01/23 - Part 2
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00:08 Volunteer 3 - I have enough money in my life now, but my issue is that I have a finite amount of time. Life and death occur in time and I need to make the best of my time and not waste it. 2:30 Helen guides the question: what really is time 14:30 Volunteer 4 - I have a lot of impatience and it feels like poison to my system. 16:45 Helen guides the question: what actually is patience? 24:44 Volunteer 5 - During an inquiry with myself, I realized I cannot find anything objective, that there is nothing outside of me, that everything is subjective. Where I am having trouble is with the contractions I feel in my body. 32:08 Helen guides the question what actually is this contraction 39:30 Helen talks about the importance of questioning, and how the end of the four lessons is the beginning of applying them. 41:10 Announcements |
Q & A Session 4 - 02.02.23 - Part 1
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Q & A Session 4 - 02.02.23 - Part 2
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